Telltale signs

I haven’t posted in a while. Which means things aren’t going that well.

Funny, for over a year I lost 10 pounds a month like clockwork. End of April, I hit the 10 pound milestone of 150. And things just stopped. Right now I’m, um – who knows? 145? 146?

Things seemed okay last month. That is, not, but I had enough excuses and enough downward movement to feel like I knew what was going on.

Now I don’t. My weight got to around 143, 142 at the end of May. I thought, great, I will get under 140 soon. And then, it just stopped. And then, it reversed if anything.

Lately I’ve only been weighing myself every few days and it’s never good. Yesterday it was 146.6 on the new scale.

But here is the odd thing. My fat percentage had been around 30. Sometimes 30.5 or 31. Now it is consistently coming out 27.5. So I can’t just assume the weight is up because I’ve put back on a few pounds of fat. The scale is saying it’s water. The water percent is up over 50, when it was more like 47, 48.
But why would I be retaining water? It’s not that hot. It’s not that time of the month. And I don’t feel bloated or swollen. My ankles aren’t swollen, my shoes fit. In fact, my fingers feel dry right now.

I wonder if it’s that reverse psychology thing. If I’m dehydrated, the body won’t release water, so it is retaining more. On the other hand there have been days when, if I may provide too much info for a moment, I have peed like a gusher.

Meanwhile, I don’t feel fatter either. I think my pants are looser still – I’m hiking them up to my rib cage and clipping them with a binder clip to keep them up. I just bought new underwear in a size 7, down from a size 8 because the 8s were getting bagging in the butt and as long as I needed more, I figured I’d try a better fitting size.

Well, I just don’t know so all I can do is wait and see. I’m exercising. Today I did a “fat burning for dummies” tape and the basic balance ball tape. I did other weight training tapes yesterday. I’ve done the fat burning tape several times lately. It’s tiring. And I walked some, took dogs to the park in the morning, various stuff. Didn’t go to the gym all week, but I did other stuff.

Anyway, I don’t know but “I don’t know” is not a positive reinforcement. It’s hard to keep motivated when I’m afraid I’m Charlie suddenly realizing the drugs are wearing off and I’m returning to my former state.

Oh yeah, it could literally be the drugs – I went off my anti-depressant Wellbutrin which is known to have a weight loss effect and might have a reversed weight gain effect. For the record, it probably also has a hair loss effect. You might want to stay away from it.